Elijah was strengthened by the bread from heaven but he still took his time to walk to Horeb. As he walked he thought about his destination ahead, the mountain of God. It was only 250 miles but it took Elijah 40 days. That is a slow amble!
Elijah anticipated arriving at his destination; possibly the great cave where God had met Moses and revealed Himself as the merciful God (Ex. 34) and sits in the cave amongst the mess of his life. He couldn’t see God in his circumstances. God wasn’t doing what Elijah thought He would do. Elijah had stopped counting his life valuable to God. He had even asked God to end his life. His faulty reasoning was this “If my circumstances are bad and seemingly valueless, then I must be of no value too. His cave was not just a geological place but a spiritual and mental place which God never planned for him to be in.
” And there he went into a cave, and spent the night in that place; and behold, the word of the LORD came to him, and He said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?” So he said, “I have been very zealous for the LORD God of hosts; for the children of Israel have forsaken Your covenant, torn down Your altars, and killed Your prophets with the sword. I alone am left, and they seek to take my life.” Then He said, “Go out, and stand on the mountain before the LORD” (1Kings 19:8)
He had been thinking of what to say to God but when God turned up, but instead of following the speech he rehearsed, he blurts out his troubles. All of his depression, paranoia negativity, defeat and hopelessness were summed up. “I’m no better than my fathers.” He felt a failure. Sometimes we get our sense of value from the perceived value of our life and circumstances. We are tempted to derive our worth from our wealth or profile in the body of Christ, but we are valuable to God because we are His special creation. When we realise that we are of great value to our Father, we are assured that every situation we are in, is crafted by Him or will be used by Him,even if others have made it hard for us. Both us and our circumstances are part of Gods workmanship.
Friend, don’t equate your value with your circumstances. Jesus life was strewn with difficulties and trouble yet he was so loved by His father. So are you and every trouble Jesus endured brought him a step closer to the crown and the joy that was set before Him.